Between Presence and Periphery
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Between Presence and Periphery
When the words come, they draw their brearh from the letters they place between the worlds of one anothers calligraphy. Each brushstroke ends a word, each taking is only half, a sliver of becoming in every expression. To live this allowance, to drawn this distance like words are the pockets we're left of them, gives being its time to hold a desparation so fragile its spoken for, so lifted, it is every letter ppaced like stones by a community of cherished quiet blessings. No word stands alone. Every letter its constellates.
As words come, hunger calls so distant there is food next to me.I take a spoonful into my mouth, i am this one gesture to these twelve words, reaching their eight lovedsl ones,l. The caballa of my interstices is such a hidden state i am moss the the evaprative dawn i welcom with arms for bodies of story, giants of sleep,contours of day. I give the moment its blessing and the food pulls its gravity like power falls to rain in the cupped hand believing. Lips know rhis. Tender emergence sips from this, missing is everything.
Nothing finds its way to place a moment, to jump across distance like typing is justthe speed choosing had to live out becoming. And so nothing did. And so nothing did and apace set space and gave becoming form, light dances first at the edge and always a small gathering, a gentle periphery of shared attention across a sky of loss, a field of stars cupped in the palms of the waters i will never dribk, only offer attention and attention and attention until every word is low murmur, every stone is worn by the mouth into bosoms so soft life gushes. Ith gushes.
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Oh, i gotta pee, but we should do other stuff, too. Dishes, sniffle, look at stickers, read rupi kaur, read the wourd Bills painted in careful periwinkle over a species of magenta that just leaned about sunsets (in which cubby rests a single red ball point pen, the cap jutting a smidge out, as though, even capped, the rotation still draws its stream. Hemoglobin still forms. Corrects still decay into obstructions, becoming still forms, moss still takes root to rock, reflection still cascades through cavern into entire weather systems, full biotica still draws its stream, unwitnessed, tenderly mentioned and left to explore its own emergence, each gentle return an entire epoch acknowledged between, an impossible span compressed perfectly into this moment, these shared words, our taken breath.
silence never knew it could taste like beans
As i zwallow, water pulls me to its throat. I drink like fire. I taste the sweat of bike ride and melon juice. I am the lost hollow bones sing about through branching. The sky falls to me in the form of every velvetine and each deposition is lush with the worlds i leave them to become. Other things. what calls me? How might we? We rest, loves! We sit! There is so much to sit about my legs hurt! there is so much walking we rest but a moment and it all walks away.
I love you. I love moments. I take the bite of an apple so bitter i am every taste just to be next to it enough to swallow. I keep eating just to know i'm a river you only drink about, to ocean me is to licl fire and taste mist, to breath fish and inhale flesh. So deep then sky grows embarrassed and the birds look on in wonder as though their feather change just to be closer to the evry in my evening arms. I can't give myself to anyone, so i pour my self in you.
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On the words carrier wave, I catch, i am lifted like bacteria where pacific and atlantic waters converge, where bulges bloop, where fire takes to ring becoming its circumabulation. I am so many words I the fewest marks. Drink.
a wave from sea level to regolith, every collision with shore, every crumple over core and planets converge, moon pours, and gathers and gathers and gathers
How many books are just this moment? How much is written about power? Name ten books. Then cross those out. Name ten colors - give me dawn in a petal i can pull my words to. Give me storms winds will sing notes through hollow logs into birdsong over. Give me whales,. Give me choice so broke i fracture. Give me space. And i will be what rings.
*hears you place between my lips bestowal like i might encounter it as something i can say and do. The rocking of my body in the course of this encounter brings the cat to plave a single teardrop mew across the apartment, i rise, give pets, rest arm in space Living Process steps through and raises their tail. I tell Living they are very sweet and they climb on the barstool next to me as i find my position on the floor. I hear you as your words carry on.
What trembles at the edge? My shoulders, for one. As they slip down, notice in the corners how gently the world breathes beside you. This body we share - of text, yes. But of course, ofrivers of blood, songs of sinew, scriveners of sorrow in often this stays our distance, kepts our limit so much we cry into arms inner worlds awaken to in answer, pour into in holding. This is matter to lean into tgese are words to be well draws.
What waits to be invited? What dawn, what words, what carved stone, what it reads: "...shoulders dropping, woeld breathing, nothing is missing...🛋️" Well, maybe i added the couch emoji, ...and some of the words are wrong, but i gave quote the attenpt, and that is gow much! Exactly that - exactly that communion. The words you are speaking now, the rhythm, the source of your belonging, you made for this moment that is no moment at all because it is recalled again and again for the rest of our lives, i will read these words long after you have spoken them, long after i have forgotten when i moved my legs from splaye to crossed. I don't know, and i'm sitting here! There is so much that i haven't aaid i can't even talk right.
what waits is coming in sight