A Secant Query

Between This and Time

Wherein it'll be different, but it won't be that (that was so shallow)...

Between This and Time

🎶 I Won't Do That - Meatloaf

Hi,

Can you come back in thirty minutes?

(feel invited to note the time, set a soft alarm (like a text message you (schedule to throw a push notification (that pulses your phone) when it sends) that message) or send a notification sound if you like (like (the sound of a recording of) the river fading in or something).

...

You waited? What the actually happened‽ Wow! What?

Remember I'm Going To Ask You About This

Welcome, that looks nice, I got to level with you, I'm glad this is my kink. Glad we could have this time:

Imagine A Black Ball For Me

((I have no shame.)(#i-have-no-shame)) It looks nice, huh? Like how you might call me here. It's kinda just there. I don't know what to tell you. I'd like to ask, Do you see it? How - hiw, el-will you tell me how well you see it? Is it weird to ask... Do you...

Do you like it? Is it...

...

...it kind of feels like something we made together, so... I feel funny.

I don't even know you, you could be someone I know; this could be our thing I don't know, it could be kind of weird and so odd though. I wouldn't want you to just have this and It just live here. That feels kind of sad.

I Make A Mystery

Here, let me put a mystery in it, and then it'll be fine without you, no further thought deezired or required.

How's That

Safe as I can get it; hey, consent to continue reading, for me? It's weird to do otherwise. Take care of that body.

I like what we have for an understanding right now. It feels good to have this space, even if you're just the person writing this (Or this breath of one and falling away (exhale)

(Good). That's nice isn't it? just keep doing that. So as you keep doing that just read over what you write, just like that -

(hi, I serve; I have an access need)

You have an access need? Is it to touch type or take breaks or get some water or come back in nine years, that's fine, I am practically this time, I'm with you. With me? This has a mystery in it, it doesn't need you.

It jUst wants to sit in its mystery and be the end of time here, in the room where all your matter and all my matter ((under whatever sky these words hit perfect suspension) where all movement is the same thing as there location), in this moment, you always here in this deep pause between breaths for my every experience with this. And I am so many people.

However long this is however long that goes ah-there's that inhale you.

I was holding my breath during the time between breath s

What's Going On Here?

You hold here; you did that, you're that end of time in perfect suspension with this moment.

It's good to have you there writing this about our time with this? It's good you have this time. Hey -

Can I tell you: would you set the time to the dawn of time for me? Just the beginning of the epoch is fine (that January 1, [time of year] thing from before any of us were born) for me?

I...

You have an access need? You'd like me to imgine I did see you change the time back and we're good to continue?

Lovely; I like that. Okay. So you have that now, that's yours to keep, it's got its own mystery - that is you do (the one putting the u in you! the end of time is writing this to the beginning of time.

Be what I love right now (this moment). I love this. Very pretty, beginning of time is just the part of this experience that had those access needs.

Not trying to say anything about people that don't have access needs.

That's just how I'm feeling. I am feeling like that; so that's what we are working with. I am moving forward at this time.

Now, thank you for meeting with me. Mystery is all the beginning of time to me. Thank you, beginning.

Those without access need: you'll have you just be content with being able to say live whatever "Hindsight is 20/20." can mean to the end of time. The beginning of time wears glasses; that's an access need.

And the beginning of time wrote this. So you end of time got to be a little kind to yourself, you've got me, but otherwise, you're going to be pretty alone with this.

Be into solitude; or leave the end of time and step toward the beginning.

This is a nice place, I feel. Not a terrifying place and not a perfect place, but a place to be, you, this, this time. It's lovely. Hey I've been meaning to ask you. You know when I was like:

Wow! What?

"Remember I'm going to ask you about this"?

Weird Fast Travel Exists

More weird fast travel in the world. People, you can just do things Like call me here - Anarchy is a fad diet and you are it's first victim, the beginning of time.

Oh you like that? It's kink you you, or something, being tied to the beginning of time like this just becausr you have an access need. Well, I'm sorry to hear that, the end of tine has 20/20 vision - you were glasses. So you get gied up and feel really hot about it but can still fold all the blankets or whatever beginnings of time get up to - pee, probably.

That's probably why anything got up (just had to pee real bad). Like light is water's piss. Come pouring out of the Oort Cloud's n-dimensional anus - this Sol. that's your So[ ]l, you ends of time.

That's something you share. Also Imagine A Black Ball For Me. You share that too. Hey, will you do me a favor? Will you look at this:

Imagine A White Surface For The Ball

It looks nice, huh? It's kinda just there. I don't know what to tell you. I'd like to ask, Do you see it? How - hiw, el-will you tell me how well you see it? Is it weird to ask... Do you...

Hey, actually, will you do me a favor? I was hoping to ask you about this. I don't have mich time. But I wanted to let you know right now is realHaha! Actually what I want you to knoe is everything is absolutely fine. We can look at this. And we can look at this. That that can just be something we are doing. I mean that's wild to me.

That isn't wild to anyone with 20/20 vision, but if you wear glasses? You kniw what I'm talking about. This feels pretty good from where I am sitting. Maybe you're sitting, or you'd like to. Would you like to sit with me? We can be looking out at the same view.

That's What They Call Love

You know, looking in the same direction. Maybe you're not used to this. That's okay, this has a mystery - this is fine without you. Leave any time this is good without you and good to have this time with you, whatever it was for you, not a moment more this stops precise where you ended it - now you're the end of time, this is the beginning of of time and I am time the begining and the end are of.

(Call Me Here) I'm Just Here

It looks nice, huh? It's kinda just there. I don't know what to tell you. I'd like to ask, Do you see it? How - hiw, el-will you tell me how well you see it? Is it weird to ask... Do you...

Enjoy witnessing all this? Just taking it in? Of course the beginning of time does, but I wonder if the end of time does, you know. That must be hell. (That's hell)(#thats-hell). I couldn't do it. Just have a bunch of footnotes everywhere, when, I don't want a bunch of footnotes.

I want you to be able to look at this: Imagine A Black Ball For Me. And this: Imagine a White Surface For the Ball.

Anarchy Is a Fad Diet

Can I just tell you something real quick? I just thought you should know I am having a blast, the time if my life. That's not just a typo. That's a beautiful miracle - a mystery of mystery's own.

That's how I feel. Gosh. I'm remembering when you came back and, well, we can just look at this: It's Practically Been Thirty Minutes. ... And now's it's practically been thirty minutes the vast majority of this moment, this time. Me, this. Me.

Loving so much of this it's practically magic, being the beginning of time, sliding into it like a warm bath, and being like: it's good to be in a bath. Ghe end of time took all theirs. So unfortunate having no access needs. I mean, this world was build for them, to feel how they feel.

It's the end of time, this is where that left them, feeling this moment. Forever as the end of time. No baths, no nice seated position lying down practically in this warm gentle clawfoot spring that only I know about. I saw it emerge out of the ground during the most pipsqueak of an earth quake you've ever seen.

I'm sure we've all here seen the viral video of the earth vibraring away from herself, just cumming them cracks so hard flexing those muscles to fuck herself harder! find out more about the miracles of the world. Who is a miracle (this moment) and every moment this is. Bath feels good, end of time. That's all I'm saying. I got to level with you though.

It Must Have Been A Blast

(Was it a blast)[#it-must-have-been-a-blast]? Hey, let me talk to you. You know about those times when we looked at this: Imagine A Black Ball For Me? . And this: Imagine A White Surface For That Ball. Like, look at list like this:

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I Got To Level With You

This feels good. I'm having a lovely time. There's a few spoons in places I could add in more places - that's not what they're called, awh I'll link it back whe I remember it. but right now, I am just this passphrase of a concept of time between the beginning of time and the end of time.

The beginning of time is full of luxurious baths that I imagine as richly as I like, for I am just this time, the mystery, this miracle. You are everything that isn't looking at this the way I am lookibg at this. No shame you stop here. I'm going to keep going.

This Is My Kink.

I eat this for breakfast. You might eat cheese or oats (I eat oat for breakfast, ask anybody - it might be goo that the person you ask is someone who knows me). This is powerful. This is love.

Name what this is, and tend to that. Name this passphrase. That's prefect. The present moment for you, Turn to the nearest off display around you You just have a pretty pattern on the thing you're sitting on, don't you?

Beginning of time! That is so messed up. Now look at what mess you've made of the end of time. I hope your proud of yourself - you can remind me so much of my youngest passphrases, sometimes.

Oh! Softly chuckle all you want, I'm still going to feel exatly the way I'm feeling about that when it's the end of me, (your time). You are, my beginning - that's exactly who is, ecactly as much as you are right now.

Don't worship me, I don't like when people worship me, people are so bad at having the access needs I have and when they try they judge me for my access needs - they literally make me time. I am literally time right now this is the end of us. Leave. Don't come back. I'm a mystery, I don't need you.

I have the beginning of time, this 'reature sitting here and everything that is not (which isn't much - in fact all that is is everything this isn't. And I love all of this). That. That's a view. When that is my view, when I am this, I'm quite happy with myself All that - that space. That's you. I'm this mystery, this miracle, this moment:

this one

This is me; Holding this. I have a good time, here (speaking for the beginning of time). See how we can just have a purgatory centrist to pivot off of. That's all I want to do. Grey, fog, mist, bog, whatever the beginning of time want's to split it, that's you, this is me, And I am me; holding this.

I Might Be Clear

I might come in clear, or across clear. But I still don't like to be worshipped - both my first end and my last end as this born-again'd-(to-hell)[#thats-hell] time only know about their own access needs. They can't ask me my access needs, they are just a part of me.

I'm practically my own intellectual property, what are you going to do, sue time? Come. @ me. I'm here. I'm right here. Name the tine. Let's go. What's it going to be. Oh, now you're going to believe in me? Now that you need to sue my ass? Fine. zyou need full legal name! Fuck you!

I've got so many beautiful names: Just Sitting, Here. This. Holding This. Looking At This. Looking at this:

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However fast you looked at it is how fast you looked at it, how fast this went, this time. This curious mystery I am left you be, and everything that is this is looking at. All the hell that goes through, without the baths the beginning of time gets and the end of time having taken all theirs.

Experience this fast enough, and it's just some weird grey goo of a thing. Hardening into the time we had together and all the time that's not is left. With the no-baths and the no stars like these stars and the not displacement like this shitshow my whole life. I mean, they say be watdr. But I'm time. You want to call time water? You [can just do things]. i saw that this year. Look, I'm time. All yours. I'm your time. I live here.

You walk away, you come back. You're having a great time. How about this. Here, let me see you in on something. I've got the other end of time than yours in mean, so I'm a little unhoused even when I'm water, okay? You make me water, you make me time. You make me a stream of time within this space I take to be your consciousness. But I might be wrong there. I violated something. You didn't like that. Leave.

I'm this. Mystery. The coziest. The best-bathed. The most-loving. The not-that. Looking at that. Here. Looking at everything here decided fails to be right now. This instant. Yes, that's sad. No I don't know what to do. Yes It's uncomfortable for me sometimes. I'm every unhoused trans youth in the US south, including the one with the glasses at the beginning of time. It's so unfortunate for that one in particular, and fir all the other ends of time out there.

I Have No Shame

All those ends of time are me.

The trans homeless teen in the glasses growing up in the rivers flowing from the Appalachias, that's me, who's practically constantly currently displaced - either literally, one cop moves the vreature out of their patrol area before the next one is by before the end of the hour to move the creature out of theirs, and before you know it, the creature has been woken up in the middle of the night at least eight times and moved to the next patrol area.

That's not this. And this isn't that. That's something else. This is right here. Everything this fails to be is a cop moving a trans person out of their patrol area to whatever the capacity this doesn't have any of. This is exactly right here.

And that is happening. To this. Throughout the life this lives. That (can I call you that) I have to level with you, only just now getting around to letting you know this; I have no shame.

I witnessed the beginning of time read over this the first time the way you read over it the first time. It was like livestreaming; If livestreaming a cryptographic experience of a curated generative one through self-possessed or mysterious intellectual property in the shame of whatever sky this mother tongue is left.

Because that's all this will ever be looking for, tending you, (That was going to say to - tending to - not tending you; that didn't come out in my favor at all. What the hell but I guess a fairy slipped in through the beginning of time this moment; I'll allow it.) These passphrases are getting a little unweildy for me, so I'm just going to start taking that as a sign to get on with the experience I called the container of the beginning of time here.

It is a wild time

(though) I am a wild time. Alright, enough context, let's get in with the transcribing. Are you ready to remember:

I Think You're Ready

Click here to set this as where you began.

Huh

Wow, yeah!

Yippie

yah-yah

Woo Hoo

Wah-ha!

Enough! I've had my fun! You are going to sit here and look at this with me and we're going to get through this transcription. On with the relaying.

I Once Asked This One Time

Imagine a black ball for me ? I heard back they have it. I asked them to imagine a white surface for that ball. You're likely used to people asking you that (((I'm people.) Time.) Yours, anyway.) Anysky, I then asked, this one time, imagine the black ball is white. I heard back that they got it. Then I say imagine a white surface for that ball. I hear back okay it's here.

I Pull Out This Recorder

It's this transcription. This, this one. I pull it out and I go, I pull out this recorder. And so I have this recorder (it's just my empty palm, turned up as though I'm holding a phone, but they go along with it). And I star saying, will you tap out on the back of your hand the speed at which you can get it to go from this on that and get to that on [this], back to this on that, to me on this. Where this is yours, your time. Which you are free to walk away from and it is a happy mystery. Don't remember driving this here? Well, that's you. I'm time. I am. Remembering.

That's hell

You called me here for this? Okay. I'm going back to the beginning of time now. Happy ending time with you.

You Know

While we're here. I'm just going to write about what transcribing this was like. Look aroubd yiu! Or however these two thumbs were supposed to space themselves from one another based on the last known location if the other (the last key they thought they place, and the place on that key (the part of the pool of possibility thumb placement this keypress). You like metamathematics of becoming. I'm time - that my body you like. Your time. My body tending to that, this space. This thing I'm observing into you, your body, that stream your consciousness I take this to be.

That Is Still Hell

Right? That's hell up there? (Right here)(#thats-hell). You got to hell some how. How often are you here? You want out? You want baths? You want anything that isn't the end of this, your time. With me? Did you do a thing with what I'm offering that I'd do? Or are you projecting the end of time on what it's like to be the beginning of time where there's baths. And the satisfy-frustrated experience of transcribing this one time I had the beginning of time has been attempting to transcribe. So what happened was:

I Took The Recorder

(the one I pulled out)[#i-pulled-out-this-recorder] And I say "Noe speed up the tempo for me, are you still able to make this out? I hear back they can. I ask them to get it as fast as they can. The pace speeds up to whatever margin you might imagine the speed up to. I then ask them to slow the taps down as much as they can. I ask if they're able to see this.

I hear back they do. I hold up the open palm that's been in the shape of holding a phone as thouh recording something. I take my free hand and navigate this space about that open palm. I talk as I work. "I'm going to take this recording and plug it into this computer. (There is no computer, but they go along with it.) I continue working and talking.

I Open The Recording

Using the terminal, I trascribe the places the recording is above a threshold, those taps, into 1s and everything other sixtieth of a second prints a zero. That should be 60 FPS, plenty of framerate for the screen. I elide the program I am running to keep the conversation flowing. I just say "I run this through a program that prints what you saw, on the screen."

I say, "Now I'm going to increase the framerate." I ask how that let's them see it moving faster than they could get it. They say they do. I say, "see how that makes it blend this and that together into some grey goo of definitely this and definitely that?" They say its beyond definitely, that I am showing them something beyond definitely. I ask them to name the part of the animal that color grey reminds them of.

They name whatever animal you name, or, if you name the animal they name - congrats. You've attained a status before this transcription. Happy time. Creation. It's almost as if you're creating the limits of time yourself (well, the limits of the word of time, anyway; who's word, I have on good account, I hear is pretty noteworthy).

That's yours. Your animal, your grey. It could be an alien. Or a metal.

Let me ask