Between Standing and Trying
Wherein you learn to stand from watching me...
Between Standing and Trying
🎶 Monster - Olivia Olson
The ground loves you. Lay on the ground. The creature walks across you like landscape. Falls down. You can't move. You're not working to maintain this happening. You're choosing to stay in touch.
Standing You
I stand you implies you here. This is violation, violence, noise (complaint). Trying reaches for noise complaint. Standing just... stands it.
Be A Leafblower
Your thing is mostly making noise. That's your thing. Measure the gap between where you are and where you should be, for me? That's trying.
Effort, worth, deservedness, motion, adjustment - this is all trying, it's toward becoming.
Standing just... is.
More Than Trying
Weight into ground. Feet knowing where the silence is and how to stand in it, out of the noise, the flood, what sweeps feet out. The light beaming from this device a hundred times a second a living pulse of connection, living wi-fi, reception, I standing wave of attention... (foom) ...here. Staying.
Trying (to pull attention out of your wallet and hand it to me) can exhaust you. You need this attention, you can't choose to give it to me, it feels forced. It's not yours to give, why can't it feel natural (like what) - like standing here!
Oh.
Standing Here
Just standing here can get tiring - your habits might not satisfy, you might feel like you are in a part of a good place where you're not in the bad place but choosing to listen to the same two bad songs at the same time (your rights got run over by a business + your mom hates you) is standing it. You'r not even noticing standing is more than trying to leave.
Try to stand how slow you are; and you can find yourself forgetting you are trying to gap what you already are. You stand, you tire: standing tires. Standing tired is still standing.
Not standing correctly enough.
...That's not a thing!
You don't fail to stand, you're either in the flesh or you're not. Trying seeks reward: ⭐ you tride. So virtue, many productive, that's proof you ain't, baby! The only way to show yourself something serious isn't to strain toward it...
It's Being Here
You, already take this seriously. Look how far down you are. Your full weight is in it. Getting here isn't going anywhere.
Standing remains true, the fidelity of presence: I love you. I love you. I love you. Damn. That's three dimensions across your own. Looks like I care for you. You're standing in my love. That's true across demon-you, dog-you, ward-you, party-you transformations. Demon dog psych ward party aside - you and the ground are in contact.
Next Steps
Why might stepping first need standing?
Are you me?
Are you learning from watching me stand?
Where are your feet?
Are you where your feet are?
How radical is that? ❤️🩹
How radical is feeling, adjusting, continuing?
How is not trying to get somewhere?
Could you get used to this?